the drop

In the beginning...


The start...


the fall...


the visit...


the stay...


the home...


the goodbye...


the fall again...


the new start...


the journey...


the journey continues..


the end..

The Change...

A moment is all it takes to change u completely.

You mite strt off d normal day assuming it 2 go completely as expected..but who knws how it mite eventually end...a notoriously unlucky day can actually turn out 2 b fortunate whn u get a surprise phonecall frm tht spl sum1 u've always waited 4..or on d othr hand a seemingly happy day can b ruined by d most unexpected harsh opinion of sum1...2day cud b 1 such day

It may strt off as a day u'd been lukin forward 2 for quite sum while..little do u knw tht it wil change u completely. U may b super excited abt sumthin..may hav planned for it all of d previous nite..u set off abt d day as optimistically as u can b..cherish every moment of it..await wid a restless heart 4 d moment tht makes d day so spl 2 u...u go abt d chores as patiently as u can..thr r small set backs here n thr..but ur so happy abt d cumin moment tht u ignore them as 1 mite ignore a fly..d day passes n d moment comes closer..it finally arrives...

Alas...it turns out d exact opposite of wht u'd dreamt it 2 be..

Neva had d thot of such an outcum even crossed ur mind...u'd been so sure abt it...how cud it happen! such a thing canot b happenin 2 u..how can u b so wrng abt it...d 1 thing u'd most awaited 4 turns out 2 b d worst of ur nightmares..u recheck 2 c if u'd gone wrng sumwhr..anywhr...but u cant figure anythin...a set back so harsh it leaves u numb..d least of all expected result of d 1 thing u'd loved most..d thing u'd cared most 4..given ur heart and soul to..it leaves u disappoited..heart-broken..shattered...

Wht do u do? Wht 2 think? wht not to? whr did u fail? wht went wrng? whn u fail 2 answer dese...u decide 2 stop lukin bak...n luk forward. to d times tht r goin 2 giv u d same hopes again...n u decide 2 neva lead urself 2 d same lane again..eva..u begin 2 luk at things differently..in a way u dun lik either...but u cant seem 2 lik anythin now..u get hateful abt everythin arnd u...u begin 2 despise everythin related 2 d misfortune caused 2 u...u wanna destroy everythin tht lead u 2 here...u strt doubtin urself..n othrs..4 wht they'd eva said 2 u...did they mean it even 4 1ce? was it all fake? was all tht u thot as gud all dis while was jus an illusion? Or things jus changed overnite?

U mite neva hav d answers 4 all dese...time will play its role n u wil move on...but everytime u wil luk bak in time..u mite find sumthin amiss..things will get normal in due course of time n ur wounds may heal.. but d fact shall stay...tht ur different now..d fact remains tht tht sumthin in u is lost 4eva..n shall neva cum bak again..Its lost 4eva

Ma 1st 1........

Lost in the world of loneliness
My heart can find not its pace

With only darkness ahead of me
And no more trust left in thee

Running about here and there
Like a blind man lost my stare

Lost its feelings from heart and soul
Even in crowds my heart is lone

The sparkle of stars means cheer no more
As for you my thoughts are sore

In nothing at all i find my pleasure
Emptiness is left as my only treasure

As the days of life get on to mount
Moments of moanness have lost their count

Yet for a ray of light to approach my gate
Hoping for happiness I wish and wait.....