Where am I Running?

Where am i running? Why so much rush? what is my destiny that im cravin s much for? Today, when i am so very engrossed in my worldly deeds...a thought occurs from nowhere...askin me where have i lost myself? I try to remember...but the time past since my last self reflection is so long that the memory of myself...my true self...has indeed faded....
I try to remember..some vague memories flash in front of me...how i used to enjoy those small pleasures of life...how i would care about small trifles...those small joys so hard earned which meant a world to me then....where are they lost today? where are the people i used 2 so care about...i hav cum all d way for them...but i cant see them around me now...where is everyone?
If they are not around...then does it mean i hav come to the wrong place? have i lost my path while trying to reach the destiny i so craved for? how? where did i go wrong? was i too fast n all else fell behind? or was i too fast n passed my destination on the way already? I missed it...blinded by my pace i missed the one thing i died for...n now there is void...n now thr is void...

some things never change

sumthin goes wrng..u think its temporary..it'll go away..after all times do change, dont they?
u wait..u keep tryin..b patient..try n understand d situation..blame it on d circumstances..it'll go away..after all times do change, dont they?
ur patience n efforts finally pay off..things begin 2 seem better..it finaly begins 2 go ur way..u knew dis wud happen sumday..n now it has..after all times do change, dont they?
ur elated..feel on top of d world..dis is ur time..n ur gonna liv it 2 d fullest..again u try n make d most of it..for u neva knw whn it mite end..after all times do change dont they?
n thn..a small glitch..sumthin doesnt seem rt..nothin specific..nothin major..but sumwhr sumthings wrng..isnt it how it had all began d othr time?..is it gettin 2 b bad again? who knws..gud times mite not last 4eva..after all times do change, dont they?
it continues tht way..sign after sign..its gettin 2 b jus lik b4..yes..thts how its was..n thts how its goin 2 b..always..yes, times do change..but only temporarily..in d end..sum things always stay d same..sum things neva change

Jus go for it

The other day i read an article in the times that said something about a man who dropped out of school cos he realized the system isn’t worth it..but that didn`t stop him from moving ahead in life..he went ahead to pursue a course in photography, started his own ad agency, gotta knw d hard facts abt d glam world there n so moved on 2 farming, got ahead wid it n tured an environmentalist....
Today, irrespective of wht he is, he has d content of tryin out wht he always wanted 2.. he din quit lik most of us do...neither was he scared of pursuin his dreams...
Now think abt dis...how many of us have d guts 2 do tht? i can bet 99% of us curse atleast sumthing abt d system each day...b it about d traffic or politics...or ur education system or office management....but..how many times in all dis while hav u given a thot 2 doin sumthin abt it? 4get doin sumthin abt stuff arnd u..how many times ha u dun sumthin 4 ur ownself? sumthin u always wanted 2 do? relive d feel u had whn u 1st tried out sumthin new..a new haircurt..a tattoo..ur 1st rollercostrer ride..feel d rush..dont u feel lik feelin d same 4 ur alltime dreams? thn y arent u goin 4 it? ask urself dis 1 ques b4 judgin stuff arnd u...
For 1ce in ur life ask urself wht is holdin u bak frm livin ur dreams? wht r u scared of ? fear of failure? wel..every1 does tht..failing..rather learnin frm ur failure is d 1st step 2 succcess...or r u scared of goin d unconventional way? thn i'd jus say tht uniqueness is a virtue...
dare 2 believe in urself...dare to do it..trust ur instinct 4 just 1ce..n i guarantee u..u shall not regret it..dare 2 dream..dare 2 live...

D Endless Road...

eva had a feelin of stagnancy...of loss..of tryin ur best 2 get tht 1 thing u most wanted..n luck failin u each time? of pushin hard every time..yet stayin aput rt whr u r? thy r dese moments tht make u wanna giv up...d true test of nerves tht seperates d real mann frm d crowd...

testin times r a part n parcel of every1's life...sum 2 grave 2 handle..a time whn nothin goes ur way..whn all hell breaks loose on u...n u feel lik ur on a highway 2 hell...u lose ur morale..ur patience..ur beliefs n more so ur trust..d very trust tht binds u 2gethr n keeps u up thru times of trials..u lose d hope of any gud cumin ur way sooner or later n lose urself in utter despair..it wasnt as hopeles as it seemed..but 2 u it strts seemin lik a dead end..a maze wid no way out..

but its wudnt entirely b ur fault...its d way it is...its a way of nature 2 test its children..a harsh way 2 make its beings stonger..its d way parents push u n beat u up 2 whn ur little so u can grow up 2 face d harsh world wid d rt attitude..its a way 2 prepare u 4 d way ahead..so d rest of d road is made clearer..u set d 1st step..He takes care of d rest..a pinch of hope is all u need 2 get u thru..

so lose not tht hope..savour every bit of it..4 who knws..whn u mite need a drop of it?

the drop

In the beginning...


The start...


the fall...


the visit...


the stay...


the home...


the goodbye...


the fall again...


the new start...


the journey...


the journey continues..


the end..

The Change...

A moment is all it takes to change u completely.

You mite strt off d normal day assuming it 2 go completely as expected..but who knws how it mite eventually end...a notoriously unlucky day can actually turn out 2 b fortunate whn u get a surprise phonecall frm tht spl sum1 u've always waited 4..or on d othr hand a seemingly happy day can b ruined by d most unexpected harsh opinion of sum1...2day cud b 1 such day

It may strt off as a day u'd been lukin forward 2 for quite sum while..little do u knw tht it wil change u completely. U may b super excited abt sumthin..may hav planned for it all of d previous nite..u set off abt d day as optimistically as u can b..cherish every moment of it..await wid a restless heart 4 d moment tht makes d day so spl 2 u...u go abt d chores as patiently as u can..thr r small set backs here n thr..but ur so happy abt d cumin moment tht u ignore them as 1 mite ignore a fly..d day passes n d moment comes closer..it finally arrives...

Alas...it turns out d exact opposite of wht u'd dreamt it 2 be..

Neva had d thot of such an outcum even crossed ur mind...u'd been so sure abt it...how cud it happen! such a thing canot b happenin 2 u..how can u b so wrng abt it...d 1 thing u'd most awaited 4 turns out 2 b d worst of ur nightmares..u recheck 2 c if u'd gone wrng sumwhr..anywhr...but u cant figure anythin...a set back so harsh it leaves u numb..d least of all expected result of d 1 thing u'd loved most..d thing u'd cared most 4..given ur heart and soul to..it leaves u disappoited..heart-broken..shattered...

Wht do u do? Wht 2 think? wht not to? whr did u fail? wht went wrng? whn u fail 2 answer dese...u decide 2 stop lukin bak...n luk forward. to d times tht r goin 2 giv u d same hopes again...n u decide 2 neva lead urself 2 d same lane again..eva..u begin 2 luk at things differently..in a way u dun lik either...but u cant seem 2 lik anythin now..u get hateful abt everythin arnd u...u begin 2 despise everythin related 2 d misfortune caused 2 u...u wanna destroy everythin tht lead u 2 here...u strt doubtin urself..n othrs..4 wht they'd eva said 2 u...did they mean it even 4 1ce? was it all fake? was all tht u thot as gud all dis while was jus an illusion? Or things jus changed overnite?

U mite neva hav d answers 4 all dese...time will play its role n u wil move on...but everytime u wil luk bak in time..u mite find sumthin amiss..things will get normal in due course of time n ur wounds may heal.. but d fact shall stay...tht ur different now..d fact remains tht tht sumthin in u is lost 4eva..n shall neva cum bak again..Its lost 4eva